I will support you through the fire of transformation.
My intention is to empower you to develop a relationship with yourself and life that creates everything that you desire and intend.
The core offering to you is Expand. Expand is designed to be repeated at deeper and deeper levels of connection to self and life.
Ceremonial offerings are available alongside Expand at discounted rates or separately.
I also offer 1:1 guidance and ceremonial preparation, facilitation and integration.
Details on current offerings are found below.
offerings
Free
EAGLE
The speakeasy of the personal development world - a place where people who like outside-of-the-box growth gather to connect, learn and dance!
THE ALIVENESS PODCAST
Aliveness is living and loving the fullest expression of yourself, with nothing left out, and in doing so finding the pathway to what you long for.
On this podcast, Alison Crosthwait, a former licensed psychotherapist and microdosing guide, and her guests explore how we create lasting change and the role that plant medicine plays to accelerate the shift from "I know what I need to do but I can’t seem to find the time, energy, or prioritization,” to “Wow! Look at big and small changes that are unfolding and everything that’s flowing because of it — what’s next?”
Audio Courses
Growing Through Anxiety: A 28 Day Listening Experience
Audio program + workbook that guides you in listening to the wisdom contained in your anxiety and releasing the anxiety as you transform it into new shifts in your life.
This program is for people who have already begun their anxiety healing journey through practices such as journaling, therapy, meditation, or cold bathing and want to listen more deeply to themselves to support even deeper release of the lack of ease that they are experiencing.
*Community pods within Eagle go through this course together - join Eagle to be connected with a pod.
Deep Personal Support Programs
HELD: A THREE MONTH ONLINE TRANSFORMATIONAL GROUP FOR EXPERIENCED SEEKERS - Begins January 2025
Held is a three month group for those walking the path of healing to support a layer of release and expansion.
We know our growth is lifelong.
Together during this three month time we will shed one layer of what we do not need and step more fully into who we are.
Held is for:
Mature seekers who are accustomed to daily practice of some kind.
Those who desire strong community support for the first part of 2025 as they transmute challenge into deeper wisdom.
In Held you will:
Work with a personal intention in your unique way
Learn new tools for healing and growth that expand your resource pool
Release what you do not need and step into who you are.
Grow your self-acceptance for your broken heart, challenges and trauma.
Receive regular energy work via Belvaspata, an angel-based modality with many protocols that you will have the opportunity to experience over the three months.
Experience your leadership and healing skills in your relationships within the group.
Widen your network of like-minded souls doing the messy beautiful work of healing in this lifetime.
Choose to microdose a medicine or not. If you chose to microdose you will receive guidance as to which medicine to work with and how or work with it in your unique way. All of us will be in the energetic field of mushroom medicine throughout our journey.
Sample intentions include you might bring (but not limited to):
Transforming grief from weight into creative possibility.
Setting a new course in work or love or parenting.
Facing a past event or trauma that is impacting the present and working through it so it becomes part of your strengths and possibility.
Loving a chronic physical symptom and expanding your relationship to it as part of your generativity.
Held involves:
One or two weekly online gatherings that will be sacred space for experiencing ourselves and our relationships to each other and the world. Attendance is not expected - attend as you feel is right for you. I will always be there supporting you and there will be a schedule for who is the focus in each meeting so each participant receives ample, ongoing support. Call times will be determined based on group consensus. (The number of calls will be based on the number of participants: up to 5 participants we will have one call per week. Up to 10 there will be two calls a week open to all participants).
Community chat for daily sharing, support and inspiration. You come across something that touches you, you have an experience that triggers you... we are here for each other.
Structured inner work process that systematically and intuitively guides you into new ways of experiencing yourself and the world. You will have access to an online repertoire of tools and ideas and together we will create a unique path for you through these resources.
The online repertoire includes:
Awareness Tool: a 25 question self assessment that, together with your intuition and the intuition of the group helps you focus on the area of practice that will benefit you the most at this time.
Online Curriculum: A large and ever-growing collection of tools, practices and ideas to support your physical, emotional, mental, spiritual and sexual growth depending on the results of your Awareness Tool and your intuition. Examples include: Emotional Release, Energy Work, and Structured Journalling.
A library of over 50 practice sessions. Practice sessions are 30 minute recordings using the tools in the curriculum.
The needs of the group will determine our focus. At this time I imagine us focusing on receiving energy work, emotional release, and personal ceremonies to clear blocks and open us to expanded version of ourselves including our connection to ourselves, life, nature, and spirit.
Details of Held. (Register Here.)
January 1, 2025 - March 31, 2025
Financial Exchange:
For those whose finances are currently constrained: $500 CAD + HST. (360 USD)
Regular exchange $850 CAD + HST (610 USD)
Pay it forward exchange $1200 CAD + HST (860 USD)
Maximum number of participants is 10.
The creation of Held is and an organic process that responds to who gathers and I may change the elements slightly between now and January 1.
I have dedicated my life to transmuting trauma into love, to coming into deep contact with my essential self and that of others. I am currently emerging from the most humbling and harrowing experience of my life. To love myself through this has been a massive challenge that I continue to expand into. I am looking forward to returning to work with you and support you as this new version of myself.
EXPAND: A FOUR MONTH TRANSFORMATIONAL EXPERIENCE
Expand is a four month 1:1 experience that supports you in connecting with yourself and creating the life you want to live.
You will engage in deep mental, emotional and somatic work in a structured process so that you can fully step into your life in every way you desire. You will also have the opportunity to experience one full microdosing cycle combined with the inner work if you choose.
There are three levels of Expand - Level I includes deep inner work using a structured process to build aliveness and meet your intention. Levels II and III layer on in person medicine ceremonies on top of the inner work.
1:1 INTEGRATION SESSIONS
Are you thinking about working with psychedelics and want to talk it through with someone?
About to do an ayahusaca, mdma, psilocybin, ketamine or 5meo-DMT ceremony or session and would like some support before and afterwards?
Planning to do a personal journey at home and would like support before and/or after?
Interested in microdosing and wanting to learn how to microdose and receive support throughout the process?
I am offering integration sessions that can be scheduled as one-offs or purchased in packages of three. Both 45 minute and 75 minute sessions are available.
Psychedelic work opens up new worlds and possibilities and gives you the opportunity to rewire neural pathways and form new nervous system patterns. Having support and guidance through the process is immensely helpful, many would say crucial.
I have participated in more than 30 ayahuasca ceremonies and extensive training and work in other medicines and modalities including being a former psychotherapist (no longer licensed). While I was working with ayahuasca I integrated with psychotherapy, core energetics, personal ceremonies in nature, and sexual healing. This work resulted in a connection to life force energy and release of anxiety that had one of my best friends say, "you're not the same person - in a good way."
Integration Sessions can be used for
Choosing medicine, learning about medicines, connecting to intuition about whether to do psychedelics, how, and when.
Coaching before a personal ceremony done alone, a guided 1:1 session, or a group ceremony: for example before and/or after an ayahuasca retreat.
Microdosing information and support
Deep inner work - emotional release, trauma, spiritual connection, energy work, processing through conversation related to psychedelics.
Intention setting
Creating a daily practice
Together we can help you:
connect to key learnings.
normalize experiences and insights that are totally new to you but that many others have also experienced.
express emotions evoked in ceremony.
process traumas, ideas, and memories evoked in ceremony.
receive microdosing information and support.
ground.
apply the learnings from your journeys. Determine aligned action based on your journeys.
establish practices and learn new tools to continue your growth.
intuit next steps in relationship to medicines.
You don't have to be working with psychedelics to book these sessions. I can teach you how to access altered states without medicine and can support you in integrating these equally life-changing and healing experiences.
Financial Exchange:
150 USD for one 45 minute session
225 USD for one 75 minute session
400 USD for three 45 minute sessions
600 USD for three 75 minute sessions
HST added where applicable. 24 hour cancellation policy on booked sessions (booking link sent upon purchase). Sessions must be used within 6 months of purchase.
I have been offering psychedelic preparation, facilitation and integration for five years. I am currently only offering preparation and integration (no ceremonies at this time). I spent a decade as a psychodynamic psychotherapist before resigning my license. My integration services are not psychotherapy but my approach is informed by my therapist training as well as spiritual training in multiple lineages and extensive ceremonial experience, particularly with ayahuasca.
Learn more about how I approach psychedelics by listening to The Aliveness Podcast Episode 13: How to get transformational results with psychedelics::
ELEVATE
Elevate is a month long container that connects you to a higher frequency of self-worth through intense medicine and energetic work. Admission to Elevate is for graduates of Empower and Expand and is by invitation only.
“Realizing the way out of stagnation, the state of bondage, is living the spiralling journey of integrity and transformation.”
